It’s Not Wasted Time
Romans 8:28 says, "And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose" (NIV Waste: (eliminated or discarded as no longer useful or required after the completion of a process) Yesterday was one of those days. One of those days that I got wrapped up in my thoughts, my feelings, my emotions, all of it! To start the day off I had to make a trip to the imaging center to have my yearly mammogram. This is only my second year having it done and I will admit I get serious anxiety a few days before and after. Not so much for the procedure itself but waiting for the results. I guess it is because I think of friends, family, and others that have gotten that dreaded call after having one done and in the back of my mind I try to think, how would I respond if I got that call??? I hoped that since I had my screening done early that morning that by chance, they would read it by end of day but unfortunately that did not happen so into the weekend I go with that somewhat on my mind, but the visit was not “wasted” continue reading to find out more of why. The second doctor’s appointment of the day was an eye appointment for my son with one of the top neuro-ophthalmologist in Atlanta. This visit would take about 4 hours and at the conclusion of the visit we hoped to have more answers regarding the reason behind my son’s vision issues and if anything, else could be affecting his walking. We had been waiting over 6 months or more to get in with this specific doctor. I left his office frustrated, mad, angry, etc. On my way home I was driving and all in my flesh, I thought, “Man this was just a wasted trip” I could have saved myself about 5 hours out the day and not hear the same things we have been told by our pediatric ophthalmologist for the past 3 years. I got home around 5pm and honestly was mentally and physically exhausted from the day. I text with someone close to our family and let them know the update on Carston. I let them know that I know I am supposed to be ok but that I was not. I was struggling with the findings. Their powerful words of wisdom back to me were that it is okay to not be ok. That I do not need to feel like I must keep it all together for the sake of those around me. Brian agreed and tried his best to put me in the positive mindset but at that moment all I could think of was “wasted time” and still no answers. During the remainder of the course of the evening and into the early morning that is when the holy spirit in his soft gentle way reminded me, “Laura, Daughter, nothing you have been through is wasted”. I am going to use yours and Carston’s story to reach so many, do you trust me? He began to remind me of the two occasions during my day that he used specific parts of my journey with Carston to be able to touch two precious moms. I had an opportunity to step out of my comfort zone and share with these moms parts of my story and at the end pray with both. I will be the first to tell you I admire prayer warriors. You know, those who seemingly can touch the very throne room of God and send the devil running with his tail tucked between his legs and black-eyed. I have never seen myself as one of those. I tried serving on prayer teams but did not feel my prayers were effective, so I stepped aside. But who can agree that you do not have to be qualified God will call you no matter what you think of yourself? If you are willing to be a vessel, He will use you when you least expect it you just must pay attention and listen. (Another blog for another day) Back to my thoughts. You see both these moms did not need a sermon they just needed a touch. An expression of compassion, love, and understanding, mostly a touch from Him, but it had to come through an avenue of someone sharing from a place that could relate to them, and He knew just what part to use and who to use in that moment. Both these moms’ babies are suffering from brain related issues/seizures. One suffered a traumatic brain injury at the hands of an abuser, the other is 10 months old and has been having seizures, feeds from a feeding tube, has vision issues etc. The mom of the 10-month-old has gone to every doctor trying to get a diagnosis so that a treatment plan could come forward. When I first saw her my heart sank. She was sitting by herself with the feeding pump on her stroller and I could tell she was desperate. She reminded me so much of me and I could not just sit there. In both situations, with the prompting of the spirit, I only knew of one thing they needed, the Master Healer to visit their babies. To visit them. I stood there praying and saying the only name I knew to stand on and that was Jesus. God showed me quickly that the day I thought was wasted in fact was not wasted at all. Had I not been through what I have been through with Carston, Had I not had the mammogram visit, Had I not had the eye doctor visit after 6 months or more of trying, I would have not been able to be at the divinely appointed moment to meet these two moms. Our paths would have probably never crossed. I would have never had a chance to meet and hear the story of two warriors that God has big plans for and be able to pray for them and their healing daily. I would have never been able to extend my reach outside the four walls of the church and be something for someone that so many have been for me. BUT GOD! Today is a new day. I am choosing to look at this journey past, present, and future experiences as an opportunity to not let anything go wasted, not one single moment, not one single doctor’s visit. If anything was shown to me yesterday is that God wants to use our wounds as weapons. Weapons that will bring light, honor, and glory to God, His plans, and His purpose for us. 😊 Much Love- Laura
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AuthorMy Name is Laura Perdue. I am 44 years old and married to my best friend, Brian Perdue and mommy to Carston Perdue. Brian and I reside in Woodstock Ga and serve on the action team of Fivestones Church in Holly Springs. Archives
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