Ps 147:3 He heals the broken in heart, and binds up their wounds. (KJV)
What is a broken spirt? When a person's spirit is broken, they often feel they aren't deserving of joy, or they may have even totally lost all hope or desire for happiness; it's a feeling of total emotional defeat. This article is an attempt to bring hope to someone who is struggling with a broken spirit! It can be trust that has been broken in your marriage, A broken spirit from a past hurt, A miscarriage, A divorce anything that has made you lose hope! When I look back over my life there are some examples that I would like to share with you. The first was when I was 24 years old. I was still a virgin praying and waiting for the man that I would someday marry. However, that did not happen the way I dreamed. It was at this age that my virginity me was taken from me against my will by someone I had friended and trusted. For many years I dealt with shame, guilt, and yes, my spirit was broken. My own mother did not know what had happened to me but had a dream reveal it. It took 4 years for me to tell her the truth. This incident sent me on a downward spiral in relationships. Did I ever receive an apology? No but I had to forgive them and move forward to start healing. Several years later, I would find myself once again with a broken spirit. I finally opened up to dating. It was then I found myself in several very toxic relationships. One guy refused to date/marry me because he said I was to fat. One that I dated refused to date/marry me because he said that I didn’t fit the pedigree that his family desired for him. The last one that I dated was so consumed with dating multiple women and with pornography that I didn’t want to marry or date him any longer so I ended the relationship, finding myself once again with a broken spirit. Was I ever going to be “good enough”? How can I ever trust enough to fall in love with someone? Last but not least, many that know me knows my heart is to serve others, and I would and have always served others with joy, until one day, that joy was ripped from me. I found myself in an office with a lady who served on the staff of the church and the pastor’s wife. It was at that time they began questioning my heart to serve. It was in this room that I was ridiculed and falsely accused of serving what was out of the kindness of my heart with an ulterior motive. I walked out of that room with tears streaming down my face with a broken spirit and lost the desire to ever serve in any capacity again! Did I ever receive an ‘Im sorry” from this first lady or the Pastor? No but my spirit eventually healed but I never truly received from 100% from them again. The trust was gone. I eventually left the ministry because I knew to allow my heart to heal this had to happen. Fast forward to 2019. I can say that in all the “broken spirit” places and seasons of my life, God has shown grace, mercy, and redemption. I am now happily married to my husband, I have a precious baby boy, and I and my husband, both serve in a local ministry where God is moving. Today my prayer for you is that if you are reading this you know that you are not alone in your broken places. There is a God who loves you and His word declares that “He knows the plans HE has for you, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you HOPE and a FUTURE. There is a purpose in the broken places if you’ll just trust God. Your BROKEN SPIRIT will heal!
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AuthorMy Name is Laura Perdue. I am 44 years old and married to my best friend, Brian Perdue and mommy to Carston Perdue. Brian and I reside in Woodstock Ga and serve on the action team of Fivestones Church in Holly Springs. Archives
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